I’m not one of those people who knows what it means to “chill.” Every time I say I’m going to take it easy by watching a movie or reading a book… I end up not actually doing it because I find some “busy work” to do instead. As a self-professed workaholic, everything has a purpose and I always find a way to write things down in my to-do list, even if it’s just “chillin” (yes, I schedule “relax” in my calendar).
However, during this time where everyone is stuck in the house and there’s absolutely nowhere to go, I’m prioritizing the nothingness over the work. Why would I be in a rush to get things done when we’ve got nothing but time?
I’ve never been the person to prioritize rest, especially since we live in a hustler’s world where people who work incredibly hard reap the most benefits. I definitely consider myself to be one of those people who hustles more than anything, but I think that this break from society has given me a reason to learn how to relax. How to lay in bed eating Cheez-Its and binge watch The Real Housewives of Atlanta from start to finish…and not feel bad about that, because that’s basically what everyone else is doing, too.
I know there are people online who are saying things like “use the quarantine to get a jump start on your business!” “learn a hobby!” “become the boss you always wanted!” and while typically, I’d be like “PREACH!” how are people going to start a business when the economy is a whisper away from collapsing? It’s cool to learn a new hobby, but it’s also cool to just…you know, relax.
This isn’t to say I haven’t been doing anything at all. I got a new writing position and have been interviewing people. I’m learning how to DJ and mix music. I taught myself how to use Adobe Premiere Pro. I choreograph a new dance each week to post on my Instagram story. I definitely wanted to keep working on things, and I’m not letting the uncertainty of the future hinder me.
However, what I really want to do with all my free time is chill. I don’t want to exercise to “get my summer body right,” because there’s a chance summer won’t be happening anyway. I don’t want to work on a business strategy when we get out of the house because we’re about to be in a recession. I don’t want to put on makeup for a new Internet challenge because I think TikTok is stupid and I don’t need yet another distr-app-tion. I just want to sleep, get a lil thiccer, and enjoy the downtime we’ve been forced into having.
Don’t let anyone make you believe that the way you’re spending your quarantime is not sufficient. As we get older, we learn to prioritize what’s best for us and our interests. Right now, getting rest, drinking water, and getting money are at the top of my list. I know that’s not what everyone craves or wants. Maybe the next person is more interested in maintaining their body and getting better at makeup, and that’s fine. Or maybe, someone else wants to be a better cook, that’s dope, too. We’re all different and like different things and want different outcomes in our lives.
What’s good for the goose isn’t always good for the gander, but the gander doesn’t have to be a bitch about the things that the goose likes to do with their free time.
So as far as I’m concerned, I’m happy with the way I’m spending my time, and I’m hoping others are happy with the way they’re spending theirs.